short prayer

"Sacrificial love is self-sacrifice with the pure motivation to alleviate the suffering of others. This supreme love is suffering love, love that requires involvement in the knotty problems of the world, love that bears with the failings and weaknesses of others, love that is committed to helping others regardless of the cost."

Jesus, teach me this kind of love.

and that too, has passed.

God in his mysterious ways has made things right again. Not that they every were "not right" but my puny intellect was no match for the curve ball He threw at me. School is still hard, I'm still lonely and confused at times, but He loves me and "she" loves me and those two things are very important. I must not forget that when stress levels are high. Anyway, stress is high again tonight as usual because of O. Chem... so I'm gonna get to that now.

strong

I laugh so others don't have to cry. I can be strong for them because it's so hard to be strong. Why would I possibly want to make them shoulder my problems? They have their own. I debate and mediate without emotion. Logic and reason are my tools. Is God trying to tell me that logic and reason cannot always be trusted? He created the earth from clay... less than clay actually: nothing. What logic is this? God defys reason and so, does his most precious gift to us (love) also defy reason and logic? God, I think I'm ready to throw my hands up and let go of my reason and logic... catch me when I fall Lord. For You are the one that will shoulder my problems and You are the one that asked me to offer them up. And Lord, when I give them to you... please take them all, because I don't want to ask anyone else to carry the burden. It's so hard to be strong Lord. I laugh so others don't have to cry.

EmoIndiePunk

I often make fun of this recently popular style of music. The whinning voices, the depressing lyrics, the droning guitar parts... But I gotta say, honest and true, that I really love this music. It's so cool to me that these artists are able to get their emotions out into the music. I am able to feel these emotions. The first verse establishes the main theme and some tight harmonies are added to draw you in and then the chorus just flows so easily... almost as if it would continue on even if the band stopped playing right then. The "5" chords, or the absence of the "3rd" brings you back to the early church composing. They're using "pure" chords... there are so many possibilities for melody in the absence of a 3rd. The chorus establishes the pulse and the rest of the song keeps it going, pushing it through the listener. In case you're wondering... I'm listening to Number One Fan right now.

At what point during the night does it stop being "late" and become "early"? Does it have to do with how you say it? "I was up late last night... until 3:00am" or "I was up until early this morning... 3am"? Or what if you don't go to sleep? Does the night become the middle of that last day? One really long day? Were you up late? or up early?

Bad Post... gimmee a break, it's late.... (early?)